My Cross

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My mother suffered illnesses all her life. In spite of it, she remained one of the most positive people I have ever known. She always was an inspiration to me as I grew up under her mothering.

She suffered a stroke that she could not overcome and because of the seizures that resulted she had to be on heavy medications until she passed on. Still she inspired me more than ever before. I often wondered what it was that enabled her to weather her storms of life with such strength and dignity.

It fell upon me to organize and review all the family documents. My mother had been a bookkeeper, so I found everything very well organized. While rummaging through one of her files, I came across a poem that she had saved.

I put the papers down and sat back to read this poem. As I read it, it occurred to me that this poem embodied her disposition, and gave her so much strength of faith and trust in our God. The poem is titled “My Cross”. I do not know who authored it, but I can hear my mother reciting it to this day.

MY CROSS

Upon my back was laid a grievous load,
A heavy cross to bear along the road.

I staggered on, until one weary day,
Lurking temptation sprang across my way.

I prayed to God, and swift at His command
The cross became a weapon in my hand.

It slew my threat’ning enemy, and then
Became a cross upon my back again.

I faltered many a league, until at length,
Groaning, I sank, and had no further strength.

“Oh God!” I cried, “I am so weak and lame!”
And lo! my cross a staff of strength became.

It swept me on till I regained the loss,
Then was upon my back, again a cross.

My soul a desert. O’er the burning tack
I persevered, the cross upon my back.

No shade was there, and in the burning sun
I sank at last, and thought my days were done.

But lo! the Lord works many a blest surprise –
The cross became a shade before my eyes!

I slept; I woke, to feel the strength of ten.
I found the cross upon my back again.

And thus, through all my days, from that to this,
The cross, my burden, has become a bliss,

Nor ever shall I lay the burden down,
For God one day will make my cross a crown!

The tears flowed as I read this poem and it unlocked my mother’s secret source. It still brings tears to my eyes and grips my heart as it works its touching and inspiring energy upon me just as it must have worked on her. I am thankful she passed it on to me.

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Turning Point

A simple poem, a word or phrase, spoken or read at just the right moment has the power to be a turning point for us. This poem was that, I am convinced, for my mother. From the moment I discovered this poem, it became the same for me, another turning point.

I hope that as you read this poem again, it helps you set your life’s compass and find your cross a bliss.

COPYRIGHT © 2014 ALLAN E. MUSTERER

I Remember How You Prayed

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I woke up early one Saturday morning. I read the morning newspaper and had breakfast before I settled into my home office to catch up on some filing and other mundane backlogged things that needed my attention. The phone rang and revealed an unfamiliar number. I hesitated to answer, expecting some telemarketer trying to sell me something I didn’t need or want. Strangely, I felt compelled to answer before the answering machine picked it up.

“Hello” I said.

“Hello Mr. Musterer.”

I didn’t recognize the voice so I inquired, “Who is this?”

A reply came, “Its Michael.” I had no idea who it was. It didn’t sound like any one of my friends named Michael, nor any others that I knew.

I said, “Michael who?”

The voice responded, “I lived across the street from you many years ago. I was your son Randy’s friend. I am now living in Florida.”

Then I remembered him and quickly said, “Hi Michael! How are you! It’s so nice to hear from you.”

“Oh, Mr. Musterer, I am not doing well at all.”

“What’s wrong Michael?”

“It’s my girlfriend, she has cancer and she is dying. The doctors gave her six weeks to live.”

“Oh, Michael, I am so sorry. Is there anything I can do?” I spontaneously responded.

Then Michael said something that really struck me.

“I remember when Randy and I were eight years old. You took us up to Big Pine Creek in the Sierras trout fishing. One morning, before we went out fishing again, you took us into the woods and you talked to us about God. I remember how you prayed. Would you pray with my girlfriend?”

For a moment I was speechless. After a pause, I said, “Michael, I would be honored to pray with your girlfriend.”

Michael said he would call back in a few minutes with her on the phone.

I was shaken at the revelation that something I had done some 25 years before had given this young man a measure of hope in his direst need. At the end of his rope, he saw a need to bring God into the situation and he believed I could do it.

I remembered that time in the summer of 1981. I had invited Michael to join Randy and me on a four day trout fishing trip to my favorite spot on Big Pine Creek high on the eastern slopes of the Sierra Mountains just above Big Pine. We loaded up my pickup truck and while packing I included my bible and my traveling pocket chalice with Holy Communion wafers. I paused with these items in my hands and thought, “why am I taking these? After all I am going on vacation into the wilderness with two children. And Michael’s faith is unknown to me.” But I took them in spite of these thoughts. Packed and ready to leave, the boys said their goodbyes to their mothers and we set out on the seven hour trek to the mountain campground.

When we arrived at the campground, we set up our camp essentials and headed for the frigid stream fed by a glacier higher up on the mountain.  Once we caught a few fish, we returned to our campsite to finish up the final details.

After two days of good fishing and the warming evening campfires, Sunday morning dawned. We ate breakfast and cleaned up the kitchen utensils. Then I took the boys into the woods and we found a spot where they could sit on a fallen tree trunk. I told them we were going to have a little church service. I prayed with the boys, spoke on the theme of the service that was being presented that day in our church back home, and together we celebrated Holy Communion. I prayed again and we returned to camp, picked up our fishing gear and went back to fishing. rsm-year11fish6-85001

Since that August 1981 fishing trip, I never gave any thought to what we had experienced with that little wilderness church service and I didn’t tell anyone. I suspect that had I told someone, they might have leveled some criticism like “Hey, you were on vacation! No need to have church there!”

Now, some 25 years later, with Michael’s call and the weight of his request on my heart, I deliberated on what just came to light. I woke my wife and told her what had just happened. We marveled at this and I asked her to pray that I would be a blessing for Michael and his girl friend. Then the phone rang.

“Hello” I said.

Michael said, “Allan, this is my girl friend Jennifer.”

I said, “Jennifer, it is so nice to meet you. Michael tells me that you are very sick, and the doctors seem to have given up hope.”

Jennifer humbly answered, “Yes that is true.”

I said, “Jennifer, I do not know you, but I know that God knows you. I know that His love for you is beyond what you or I can understand. To Him you are worth a kingdom. He will not let any harm come to you. I also know that Michael loves you dearly and he has asked me to pray with you. Would you like me to pray with you?”

“Yes, please.” she said.

I proceeded to pray with Michael and Jennifer. I thanked God that He revealed to Michael that there was a source of help in Jennifer’s dire situation.  I acknowledged God in His omnipotence and asked for His grace and blessing on the health of Jennifer. I asked that through His Holy Spirit, He would guide the hands and minds of the doctors to insure a positive, blessed outcome for her. I finally thanked God for what He would do for Jennifer and that His perfect will be done.

The three of us spoke briefly and we said our goodbyes.

I continued to pray for Jennifer and Michael in the days that followed. Early that week, I received another call from Michael. He told me that on Sunday, Jennifer became seriously ill and was rushed to the hospital emergency room. She seemed near death. Her regular doctor could not be reached so another doctor took over her care. When this doctor reviewed her medical charts, he immediately took her off the medication previously administered and changed to another one. Jennifer responded immediately to the new medication. So rapid and dramatic was her response that she was released from the hospital the next day. Her cancer went into remission and she was feeling better than she had for a long time.

I was thankful beyond words and offered up a prayer of praise and thanksgiving. I invited Michael to our church in his area. Later I found out he never went. Five years later Michael called again and told me that he and Jennifer were now “just friends” but she was still healthy and well. I took the opportunity to once again invite him to church. Whether he accepts or not is yet to be determined. But I learned much from this experience.

Turning Points

The turning point for me was the realization that actions that we take can have profound positive effects on people and that these may be hidden for many years. They are like seeds that take root and blossom only in God’s perfect and meticulous timing. I learned that we need to follow the impulses that God places into us, even if they don’t seem necessary or appropriate at the moment. God’s purpose for us may not be clear in its details, but it is undeniable in its reality. Prayer changes things, and prayer changes me.

It is my constant and continuing hope that this experience will be a turning point for Michael and Jennifer, and that they will realize the love and power of God that is available for them. I hope that they will know that God used them to give me a profound turning point in my life.

I am reminded of a story of a nun who, during World War I, had a hospital where she treated soldiers who fought in the war. Above the entry to her hospital were the words “Do Good and Disappear”. At times, God reveals to us the results of what good we once did and tried to disappear. Sometimes it takes years to know and sometimes we may never know.

COPYRIGHT © 2014 ALLAN E. MUSTERER

ACCENTS

 

It was the summer of 1973. I was a church youth leader and we were on a trip to Canada. I accompanied fifteen teenagers on the five hour flight from San Diego. Arriving in Toronto we were taken to one of the local churches where we were assigned to families who had volunteered to house our youth and youth leaders.

The next morning after a hearty breakfast, we were taken to a park where we were joined by youth form all over Canada and the USA.

We had just arrived at the park when I noticed a small crowd gathered around a man who was talking. I made my way to the edge of the rapidly building crowd of people.

I imagined he was about thirty years old with short prematurely gray hair. He was relating a fascinating story. Everyone was intently listening as he masterfully told his story with vivid details. To this day, I could not tell you what that story was about, but the life lesson, the turning point, that I experienced in the moments that followed were unforgettable.

As I listened to him speak, I assumed he was from England as he spoke in a distinctive English accent. I found his voice and accent delightful. When he was done I spoke up.

“What an interesting story. I could listen to your delightful accent for endless hours.” I said.

I felt good saying it and meant it as a compliment.

He quickly retorted in his heavy accent: “I don’t SPEAK with and accent! YOU LISTEN WITH ONE!!!”

Wow, was I taken aback!  I didn’t expect that response and didn’t know what to say so I just kept quiet. I momentarily stood there in shock, dumbfounded and unable to utter a single word. The man quickly entered into discussions with others while I slinked away to be in solitude.

Alone, I deliberated within myself as to what had just occurred. After I extricated my ego from the shock, I realized that this man had given me a new and ultimately valuable perspective. He revealed a fine point in the art of listening. We all have an accent, a filter that characterizes what we hear and how we process it. It is important that we are aware of our accents and in some cases, alter them by fine tuning them for our own benefitial growth in mastering our listening skills.

The Turning Point

Over the process of years of deliberation and observation, I have grown to appreciate this profound point of listening: We must be aware and conscious that we indeed listen with an accent: the accent of “I want it to be thus…” or “Only if it is my way will I play….” or “that’s not what I expected” .  Since then I have learned to relish the unexpected, unplanned for, surprisingly rewarding events that force their way into my day….they are gifts of learning, learning who I am, why I’m here, and where I am going, as well as who you are, why you are here in my life, and where are we going together.

I also learned that sometimes there “accents of ignorance” and that at times, well meaning people can say things that hurt us. When I am aware of the accents of others, I can parry that hurt and quickly forgive, saving myself from unwanted and unnecessary pain.

COPYRIGHT © 2014 ALLAN E. MUSTERER

Solomon’s Recipe

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I was a senior in High School and had seven or eight schools that I considered to attend in pursuit of a degree in mechanical engineering. One of them, Bucknell University, I considered because it was the school where my chemistry teacher had earned his chemistry degree. As with all the other schools I seriously considered, I would be alone at Bucknell, as none of my friends from school or church would be there with me.

I applied to my list of choices and waited for the hoped for acceptance letters. I gained acceptance into six schools, but based on a visit to Bucknell one weekend and the counsel of my mentor and uncle, I decided to attend Bucknell University in the small college town of Lewisburg, Pennsylvania.

When the journey to school was a few days away, I attended a midweek service at our church. The sermon was based on a text from Old Testament scripture, Solomon’s Proverbs. I had always been impressed with Solomon primarily because of his encounter with God as a teenager. The text for the service was Proverbs 4: 5-6. I do not honestly recall how it may have impressed me at the moment I heard it or how the sermon based on it moved me. The future revealed that it somehow got into me. It became a lifelong touchstone that has been a gold mine of wisdom and strength throughout my life to this day.

The text as used in the sermon was from the old King James Version as follows:

Proverbs 3:5-6 (KJV) 5- Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.
6- In all thy ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct thy paths.

I found this text to be a recipe. A recipe has two components: Ingredients and Instructions. The ingredients define what elements make up the recipe, while the instructions define the sequence and timing of combining them that is critical to achieving a successful end.

With this analogy in mind, I considered analyzing the text.  I expanded the words of the text by adding the words found in the Message Bible as follows:

Proverbs 3:5 (MSG) 5-6 Trust GOD from the bottom of your heart; don’t try to figure out everything on your own. Listen for GOD’s voice in everything you do, everywhere you go; He’s the one who will keep you on track. Don’t assume that you know it all.

I found four basic Ingredients:
1. Trust in the Lord my God
2. Don’t insist on understanding
3. Acknowledge God in everything without reservation
4. God will guide you

I then dug into each of them to understand the Instructions as follows:

• Trusting in God I found to be the key to the success of moving forward with this life recipe. This ingredient is critical before the rest can be added. Looking at the many turning points in my life, I was able to see how the hand of God influenced the experiences I had in life. This developed a strong sense of trust in God. Whenever I faced circumstances that seemed beyond me, I trusted God and His will and plan for me. I found that God was worthy of my trust, completely and “from the bottom of my heart.”
• Leaning, relying and insisting on my own understanding I found to be futile. Too much was hidden from me. I could not make wise decisions based on such limited understanding. This was not always easy to do. We tend to think we know it all. However, I came to believe that this ingredient was crucial and I was equipped to embrace it when I trusted in God. Then and only then could I move forward without complete understanding. I also came to realize that eventually, understanding came at the most beneficial moment, even though it was many years later.
• Acknowledging God and His influence and actions in my life presented some difficulty when I faced some very difficult times. When life seemed to be going in directions that caused fear and apprehension I often wondered how God was involved. But I found that when the previous ingredient was engaged, I could acknowledge God in all things. Experience bore out the reality of God’s hand in everything. I was often reminded how Joseph came to see the evil his brothers had done to him when he said to them, what you meant for evil God made into good.
• The directing of my path by God was His way of fulfilling His hope in me. It took a specific listening to Him as He “spoke” in the form of feelings, words and experiences. In most of these, his “speech” was a whisper and not thunder, lightning, fire or earthquake. Here I learned yet another lesson from Solomon. When Solomon was anointed king, he was but a teenager. God asked Him what He should give him. He asked for “a heart with skill to listen, a discerning heart to be a king of righteousness”.

TURNING POINT

The turning point in this experience occurred in the span of a few minutes. A text from the Bible read in a church service. There was no immediate “ah-ha” inspiration. But, as time marched on, the value in the words found ever deeper meaning for me. As the model of a recipe eventually became evident, its value increased even more. I anticipate that further revelations from these simple words will be revealed in experiences yet to come.

COMMENTS

As you read this turning point experience, I hope that you found some personal connection wherein the truth of this scripture also influenced your life. I hope you will share them here so others can be blessed by your experience.

COPYRIGHT © 2014 ALLAN E. MUSTERER

 

Introducing The Turning Points of Life Blog

??????????Life has been good to me. I have been blessed with an extraordinary number of turning points that had profound changes in the direction of my life. By utilizing this blog to share them with you, I hope to inspire you to see the turning points in your life. I believe that sharing our personal turning points, we can prove to be a blessing to not only someone, but “somemany”.

I welcome you to come along with me and see how seemingly small and insignificant events can turn into extraordinary life experiences.

Sincerely,

Allan E. Musterer

COPYRIGHT © 2014 ALLAN E. MUSTERER